So, my Hubby wanted to move to Brazil, he is half Brazilian and wanted to be with his Dad, also was concerned re: US economy and more imprtantly wanted to work from home, so he could see his beloved daughter, who he missed, having to leave the house early, early to miss traffic - commute the horrible LA traffic to a job he hated and sometimes not seeing her for more than and hour. I get it - I get he hated this horrible office (I would have too and not made it as long as he did) and he loves Brazil, his Dad who had seldom seen in 9 years - and he loves working from home etc etc... I agreed to this - ith some doubts, but I did.
Now, I am very, very down - I feel I compromised myself too much - I feel adrift, v low and tearful most days. I had some good weeks, but this is HARD and it is putting stress on our marriage and he is also v troubled now, because I am down and have been for about 75% of the time we've been here - now, 7 months. People ae helpful, I am glad for his time with our daughter and his tremendous help and we agree - mostly - on parenting issues etc etc... but I feel I have lost a lot, and I feel a lack of joy.
I am concerned this shows to my 13 mnth yr old. She is a wonderful, wonderful child and I want to be joyful Mummy she once had. I love his family, and I really feel close and kindred with them, but they did make negative comments re my parenting style at first... not getting the whole AP thing, which I understand.... but it made me feel v alone - plus a large dose of sleep deprivation for over a year now - my wee one sleeps maybe 3 -4 hrs at beginning of night, but awake every 1 1/2- 21/2 hrs after that...
Any guidance would be much appreciated. Thanks for listening.