I believe in attachment parenting, but believe that I've done far too much for her, enabling her to stay a baby. She is a brilliant child who can clearly understand context that most kids her age can not. But, she will revert to toddler behavior on a regular basis to try to get what she wants. She see's me as more of a companion than an authority. We have SO much fun together. But, when it comes down to getting her to pay attention and follow instruction, it gets very frustrating. She doesn't take me seriously at times when it is required. The more frustrated I feel, the more insists that it's all just fun and games. I never want to squelch her creativity and struggle with disciplining her.
Yesterday, she was extremely difficult to get up and out to the school bus on time. When she returned from school, I had removed the lap-top from her room and told her that she'd need to earn the privilege of using the computer by showing me she can get up and moving with out my constant drilling in the morning. She was crushed. This morning's routine was slightly improved. But, I just feel like I'm doing a horrible job. That I've been the one keeping her a baby and now expect her to turn on a dime (she's very sensitive and knows when I'm frustrated, no matter how hard I try to conceal it). I just want to help her to become more independent. I had separation anxiety as a kid and I think I've projected that onto her, stunting her independence. I need support in creating a more balanced approach to everything I do with her. I fear that my disciplining has been far too inconsistent.
Does anyone relate?