Highneeds first child

[Meganb]

I have two lovely children, and one VERY understanding husband. Every so often I totally flip out with Burnout.
I don't know if I'm asking for any help or just need to hear that its all ok.
Our first child nearly put us totally off children until I learnt about AP, then life changed for the better.
Our first is HIGHNEEDS. You can almost see her bouncing off the walls. My husband and I are just left panting at the end of the day, and me often in tears.
I really thought it was just my parenting style until our second child came along. Very very different.

But we are worried. Is it just highneeds. Some days I wonder. But would I do anything different? Our second child can go for hours alone playing still a baby not yet walking or talking but our first can't handle playing alone or even being alone.
Was it the parenting style I used before discoving AP which has set her up this way. In fear of loosing us?
I feel I give all my time to my children and have none for myself. My highneeds is like a broken cup, never happy with anything I can give.

Thank you for listening
Tired